30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 2 – My top 3 fears
Today’s challenge is to talk about our fears. Oh my were to start. I am not really a “fearful” person but there are a few things that I do fear. I have to say this post was harder to write than I thought it would be. I am not really someone who focuses on my fears. I really try to focus on what I can do and what I can control and not let fear into my life.
I am not a fan of snakes. I will honestly tell you that I run to the other side of the yard if there is a garter snake near me. I have been scared of snakes since I was a little kid. My Mom would have to convince me that the snakes were not going to get out at the zoo in order to get me to walk through the exhibit. John will come home and tell me about the Rattle Snakes that he sees at times deep in the park. I keep having to remind him that I am not a fan of snakes and the idea of my husband working near rattle snakes really creeps me out.
2. That no one reads what I post
Wow, This is a big one for me to admit in writing. I worry that no one reads the posts that I put out on the blog. I spend hours and hours a day working on the blog and some days I get so scared that the time I put into the blog is not reaching anyone. I really want to make this a community of people that share ideas, help each other save money and get to know each other.
I hope that everyone enjoys our posts and feels free to comment and share their ideas and thoughts.
3. Losing someone I love
I think this is my biggest fear. I am so thankful everyday that I get to spend with John and my family and I really can not imagine not having them in my life. I feel like I met the person that I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with. I feel so lucky and blessed to have found a partner, best friend, supporter, travel partner, and so much more in John. I never thought I would marry someone in law enforcement. I love the John goes out an protects park visitors and makes sure that everyone is safe but I also fear that one day I will get a scary knock on the door. I know that my husband is trained and knows how to handle situations but there are unfortunately things that you just can’t control. I try not to think about this fear or let it creep into my thoughts very often during the day. The hardest times are when I am talking to John and he says “got to go” quickly and then hangs up the phone. I know that he is potentially entering into a law enforcement contact. The minutes of waiting until he calls back are the hardest. My head races with possibilities and fear during those minutes. I get so happy and relieved when I see his name pop up on my phone when it rings. I know that I will have this fear for as long as John works in law enforcement. I just focus on the positives and truly embrace how blessed I am to have met the man of my dreams.