The urge to Spring clean has taken over this week!
I am on a mission to clean out closets, boxes, nooks and crannies and all the places in my house I tend to ignore on a daily basis.
I have been reading a few books on mindful living and simple living and I really like what they talk about.
I don’t think I am ready to get rid of everything and live out of a suitcase but I am ready to get rid of the clutter and junk that is weighing down our lives.
I keep reading that your body can manifest the way that your house looks/feels. That it can be hard to lose weight and get in shape when your house is cluttered and stuffed with well stuff.
I decided to start my emotional spring cleaning with our closet which needs help!
Are you wondering why I called it Emotional Spring Cleaning?
I feel like I am not only cleaning out the clutter in our lives but I am cleaning out the clutter that is holding me back from reaching my goals.
First I must admit that our closet is not a normal closet. We turned a room in our house into a closet for both of us. John put in a closet organizer system when we moved in and well we have not done much else with it since then. Oh did I mentioned we moved into the house over 2.5 years ago.
Yes we use our closet daily but we have not really cleaned/gutted it since we moved in.
I decided to start with my dresser and go through it drawer by drawer. oh my! I hate to admit it but I think there were drawers that I had not opened since we moved in.
I had clothes in there that I know I have not worn since we moved. They are just taking up space and making it hard to put away clean clothes.
I must pause and thank my dear Husband John for not freaking out/thinking I had lost my mind when he came downstairs to this…….
John simply took a deep breath and asked what I needed help with.
I think he could tell that I was on a mission.
The deeper I dove into our closet the more I found that made me shake my head.
I hate to admit it but I had shoes that were still in there boxes and I don’t remember when I bought them. I am guessing I bought them years ago when I was working in corporate America and just never wore them.
Expensive high heels that are still in the box and will never be worn…..ugh!
I found pants that had holes where there should not be holes. Seriously why am I keeping pants that I can’t were because if I sit down I might flash parts of me that are not for public viewing.
I don’t have a reason for holding onto this stuff other than maybe guilt. Guilt that I had bought them and felt bad getting rid of them. Hope that maybe someday I would wear them…the shoes not the holy pants.
I have to keep telling myself that these items do not represent me or who I want to be. They represent my old life that I no longer live or want to live. I have no urge to go back to Corporate America. I love working as a blogger from home.
Starting the process of gutting our closet has been freeing and scary at the same time. Scary to think that I might get rid of something that I really need. Freeing because I am getting rid of things that I don’t use or need.
A good friend of mind told me that she did a similar deep clean of her closet and loved it. She realized while cleaning out her closet and getting rid of things that if she ended up needing something she could go and buy it again. That she was in a new place in her life where going out to get a new shirt was not going to break the bank. That the clothes in her closet did not represent the person she is today. They represented the person she was years ago.
I have had this conversation in my head the entire time I have been working on my closet. I have to remind myself that I need to live for TODAY not for what was or could have been.
I need to release the feeling of worry and move on with my life! I know that I am not going back to my old job and I have moved forward as a person. Now I need to make my closet reflect the person I am today!
I will keep you up to date on how the emotional spring cleaning goes. I have a feeling it will not be a quick process but it is a needed process!
Are you Spring cleaning? Do you have things in your house you are ready to get rid of or need to get rid of?