I haven’t been me for the past couple of months. I have felt like I am living in a fog of stress, change, and worry and it has been eating me up daily. I feel like since Fall I have been just wandering through life not really attacking it or focused on getting things done like I normally am.
You know those days that you look up at night when you go to bed and wonder what you did during the day or what you accomplished. This was me for weeks on end. I didn’t have the urge to write, I didn’t have the urge to look at emails I just wanted to do nothing and sit in my own cesspool of issues.
So not healthy or productive or happy or anything that I like to think of life being. When the invite came from Carnival to spend a week on the Carnival Splendor I jumped at the chance. I told myself that this would be the week that I became me again. That this would be the week that I would shed my stress, shed the worry, and emerge a new person.
Tons of platitudes went through my head as I tried to convince myself that it was time to break free and become me again.
Then a funny thing happened….it all really came true. All those platitudes of this is your week, you will rise above and so on happened and I am so damned thankful for it.
Spending time in just watching the world go by from the balcony and taking time to breathe. To just focus on breathing and taking in the moment. Not being connected to social media, not being connected to email just taking time to be connected to the air and the water around me.
I always giggle on the inside when people say they need their vitamin sea…well, I can now say that I need my Vitamin Sea and I need to make sure I take time to enjoy it more often than I have been.
As the week progressed I found myself wanting to write again and wanting to tell a story on the blog. I found myself taking fun photos and looking around with fresh eyes.
I found me!
I found ME!
Holy hell I found ME!
The me that has been missing for a few months, the me that was wallowing in deep depths of worry and stress and the me that loves what I do and can’t believe how blessed I am to do it.
The sea days gave me time to reflect on where I am today, what my goals are and what is driving me forward. The friends on board gave me time to laugh, talk openly and share my journey and to hear about their current feelings.
The crew provided me with pizza at 5 am when I woke up and decided that it was the perfect 5 am breakfast of choice. The barista provided me with chai tea to fuel my caffeine addiction and the ship gave me the space to breathe and take it all in.
Of all the cruises I have done I feel like this one hit me as more emotional than recreational. I came into this cruise needing something different and the experience provided for me exactly what I needed.
I have always thought of cruises as a fun getaway and a way to get out and explore a new place in the world. I learned this week that a cruise can be anything that YOU Need it to be.
It can be your escape from reality.
It can be your romantic getaway
It can be your chance to skip laundry and dishes for a week
It can be your family bonding time
It can be your chance to read the books you have been wanting to read
It can be what YOU NEED IT TO BE!